Who is Sanam ghazanfar Malak?
Who Am I?
I, Sanam Ghazanfar Malak, am merely the Angel of the Lion's Love - Sher Key Pyar Ka Farishta.
My value is not intrinsic or extrinsic, but only derived from the fact that I am Abbu's only son. Outside of being Abbu's son, extrinsically, my worldly skills and contributions are all negligible, expendable, and replaceable. Outside of being Abbu's son, intrinsically, I am a well-meaning boy with good intentions and lofty ideals that are occasionally detached from ground-reality. My impact on the environment is generally mediocre and spotty-at-best in terms of "greatness." This is my value outside of being Abbu's son.
My value, in terms of being Abbu's son, like a diamond, is inhered by the love and investment that a man like him has made in me. His endowment in me of an extraordinarily exorbitant amount of love and money is not negligible, replaceable, or expendable. Even despite my obsessive adoration of him, I constantly find my appreciation and recognition falling short of just how much he invested in me. Understanding him and his stuff is like having been given a holy-book that one didn't treasure enough, but now while reviewing, consistently gains insight from and derives material value through. The sum total (and beyond), of such monetary and compass-like life-navigating structural insight is now contained within me as his primary estate manager.
All my worldly skills and contributions are therefore subjugated by my role as Abbu's primary estate manager, and derive their directional value and impact through this. I am nothing if I am not his son. It is not me that matters, it is him. I am not anything except for the responsibility I have to uphold and protect him, his love, and his creations. I don't have a child, aside from him. I don't need anything from anyone except that they love him. If they love him, they can inherit from me a part of him. If they don't, I will find others that do.
That is why, knowing me, entails knowing him. And that is why, "Ghazanfaristan" is my perpetual state of "being him."